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the point of no return?

asianDad — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:37:49 +0000

the way things are going with the wife lately, I really think she’s reached the point of no return. she has surpassed her threshold and has become a crazed bundle of rage and bile. We’ve been through these rough patches before but one can only bash against the same brick wall a certain amount of times. I really don’t know what to do. we’ve reached an impasse. will I soon have to rename this blog – divorced asian dad?

Christmas lunch in January

asianDad — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 03:30:21 +0000

Since our department didn’t have the annual Christmas shindig due to all the layoffs that occurred at the end of the year, the bigwigs decided to have a “christmas luncheon” for the surviving colleagues today (January 30th). I guess, the managers realized that they needed to spend the allotted Christmas party money that was budgeted for last year or else *lose* the amount in this year’s budget. Since all my closest buddies got let go, I didn’t have all that much fun at the luncheon (which was held at a nearby hotel). I guess, I need to make an effort and form new bonds with some of these other colleagues but that takes extra *time* and *effort*. and I just don’t have the energy to do that kind of shit. Just call me an old grump.

argh. I better snap out of it and get to schmoozing. I suppose I do NEED to elevate my profile around here or else risk getting the ax the next time the bigwigs decide to cut more of us.

I'm a survivor

asianDad — Sat, 06 Dec 2008 20:49:42 +0000

I don’t have much time to blog but I wanted to post a quick update. I still have a job. But man, friday was just all doom and gloom around the office. I left right after meeting with HR and my boss so I don’t have the full body count at this point. All I know is some of my closest colleagues at work didn’t make it through the cut with me.

I’ll be sure to post more on this later…

should I stay or should I go?

asianDad — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:30:19 +0000

So you gotta let me know, should I stay or should I go?
-The Clash

After weeks and weeks of waiting – I’m finally going to learn if I have a job or not tomorrow. ugh. wish me luck!

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call me Lester Burnham

asianDad — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 22:29:29 +0000

For the last couple weeks, I’ve been taking the boys to an indoor pool for swim lessons every saturday. It’s run by a local swim team and the instructors happen to be volunteers for the team. Initially, I dreaded being the designated chauffeur for the kids but then I realized that their swim instructors were fit, young girls in swimsuits. Yes, call me a dirty ol’ man but sometimes I still feel like a horny teenager. Is it so wrong to be watching my kids learn how to swim and not turn away when their instructors’ toned bodies get in the way? my favorite part is when she comes out of the pool to show the kids some techniques. Come on, is it not akin to watching “Dancing with The Stars” for the eye candy? Just call me Lester Burnham, the sad middle aged dad in the film American Beauty.
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Waiting is the hardest part

asianDad — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 00:11:01 +0000

Man, I really thought that the experience of blogging all these years would help make it a little easier writing up twenty-odd pages about how I’m qualified for one of the remaining positions left at work. I was wrong. It was still pretty difficult to write out my job experiences and expertise without sounding like it’s a bunch of BS. Well, I’m still not too sure if I’m coming across as a big headed nincompoop or not. But I’m just glad I’m through with the forms. and now it’s just a matter of waiting for the decisions to come down from on high. As Tom Petty sang oh so long ago, the waiting is the hardest part.

work update…

asianDad — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 17:26:13 +0000

Well, things are getting a bit solemn around here at work. We just had a meeting where we were presented the proposed structure of the new group and the positions/grade levels for each spot. As expected, it’s a bit awkward knowing that I’m competing with my colleagues for the available slots. I guess I should be glad there’s a position that I’m eligible for. Some folks down the hall were told their roles have been completely eliminated and that they’re not in the “candidate pool” for the remaining positions. To add insult to injury, these folks are required to stay here until they get the official notice in December. That truly sucks. But back to the proposed structure for my group – there’s a role that seems tailor made for me so it seems that I’m a shoe-in. But I won’t boast about it or even think it until I see it in black and white. I suppose anything can happen from now until the final decisions in December.

But it’s clearly evident now that some other groups in our building have already been through this process because when I come in to work in the mornings now, the main parking lot, which normally is pretty full when I get there, is now half empty. It’s now a daily reminder of what’s going on in this company at the moment. ugh.

just in time for the holidays…

asianDad — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 16:12:00 +0000

well, as expected we received some bad news at work. our work group will be cut back by 50%. The difficult part is that the whole process will take weeks. At the earliest, we all might find out if we have a job or not in December, right in time for the jolly holidays. ho, ho, ho, Merry Christmas indeed! We essentially have to “apply” for the remaining positions so it’s going to be a bit awkward to be competing with colleagues that I’ve known and have become close to over the years.

I've got a bad feeling about this

asianDad — Sat, 27 Sep 2008 20:48:33 +0000

crap. There’s word that upper management will be coming down to our site this coming tuesday to speak to our division about some upcoming “changes”. No one in our group seems to know what those “changes” will be but we all get the feeling it’s going to be bad. We’re expecting layoffs but not sure the percentage of our group that’ll be affected. could be 40%. could be 100%!! nothing’s certain at this point. so, say a little prayer for me this tuesday. hopefully, I’ll make the cut.

money is the cure

asianDad — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 16:22:57 +0000

damn. I found myself taking out my frustrations on the kids again last night. I feel like shit for doing that. Our ever-looming financial burdens are just getting to me again. the wife is pressuring me to seek some sort of anger management course. I’m not sure what good that’ll do. I KNOW the solution to my anger and frustration. It’s money. If someone could get rid of my debts, take care of my bills and place a nice comfortable lump of green back in my bank account, I’d definitely be able to manage my anger!! ..but for now, just call me ANGRY asian dad.